What happens, Happiness

What happens
When your past creeps up on
You
When you're so lost
And you don't know where to
Hide
You don't know
To run
Or stay
To mend the past
Or
Leave it shattered

What happens
When you chose to follow
The past
To replace the would be's
With the already's
To re-write your future
Using your past

What happens
When you chose to only see
The good
From all the bad
That happened to you
When you only remember the
Smiles
And not the fists

What happens
When you go back to
Recession
To drugs
To alcohol
And cutting

Where will your happiness
Be
That you worked so hard for
Strived to reach

Where will it be

Will it be on the bottom of the
Bottle

Will it be hidden
Within that last
Pill

Is it lost
Somewhere beneath your
Skin

Bleeding out
To find the happiness
You once knew
You once
Gave up

Where will it be