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Telling someone I am going to
Have to
Tell someone
Aren't i?
Would you forgive me?
Could you?
Tell someone what?
About me
About who I am
What I am
Who are you?
Tell me
Tell me
Who you are
Tell me, and I'll forgive you.
Thank you

I want you. You have me. I want you...
Sweetheart...
I'm here
But.. Can I have you...?
You already have me..
You promise?
I don't like to promise.. But yeah, I'm here.
I'm here and I'm staying. You have me.

people like me Tell me to stop
That it's disgusting
That I'm disgusting
But tell me
That you care about me anyway
I would
Except I don't lie
So I'm sorry
But you're not disgusting
You say that
As if you know
What I am
I think I do
I've known you for a long time
I haven't seen anything wrong
You're perfect
People like me
We hide what we are
Very well
Why should you have to
So that people like you
Who lie to us
Just to get inside
So that people like you
Who we trust
No questions asked
Don't tell the world
Ouch
That hurts
I haven't given you any reason
Not to trust me
It's repulsive
What I am
I'm repulsive
There is no way
That I would ever tell anyone
What I am
And if someone where to find out
Who I am
What I am
I think I might
Quite literally
Die inside

Some QuestionsWould you hate me if I told you how I loved?

Would you shun me if you knew my heart and mind?

Do you think it's a sin for me to be who I am?

Do you really think God would oppose love and support hate?

Do you realize that I am just like you,

same hopes, same dreams, same fears?

Could you sleep at night,

or face yourself in the morning,

knowing you are an advocate for discrimination and loneliness?

Do you think the love I feel is not as "real" as yours?

How can you know my heart well enough to judge it?

And, have you looked at your own heart lately?

reminding me....Dear you,
I love you. Whole heartedly.
I die inside everytime you don't look at me and I crave your attention.
I secretly hate every other girl in class. Because you love them.
And not me.
I need you in my life.
I don't know what I would do without you.
If you would suddenly leave me. I might die.
Everything I see reminds me of you.
Leopard print.
Blue.
Tigers.
Lions.
Engravings.
Cats.
Silly words.
Big words.
Profound words.
Baked goods.
Chocolate chip cookies.
Cupcakes.
Sparkles.
Bows.
Ribbons.
Pink lipsticks.
Blue eye shadows.
Chocolate brown eyes.
Coffee.
Coffee with straws

.
dragons.
Pizza.
Horses.
Every little thing. Everywhere I look.
I need you in my life.
I hate that im not part of your life.
Im forcing myself to be this girly girl who I hate just so that you will look at me…
you never do.
i cant stand this in my life anymore....
i wont leave...
i'll stay forever.
with you...
if only.........
goodbye

Is it wrong?Is it wrong for me to love? Because that’s what it is, love.

It may not be with a man, but I know. I know it’s love. What else could it be? The desire to look at her face, her eyes, her lips…
And never wanting to look away. The need to hold her hand, and to regret letting it go.
To see her smile, and skip a heartbeat. To have my stomach turn to fluff at the thought of her.

“You’re just close friends” they say. “You can’t naturally love another woman.”
I ask you… what is this? Friendship? The same that I have with men? Impossible.
She is beautiful. Gorgeous, even.
She is my

Not a Doorman Who holds the key?
How can I get access.
And slowly unlock the door.
Not open it wide.
It takes time to open
The door
How can I get a hold of it.
Where can I go?
What can I do
To show you
I'm not in it to
Hurt you.
To show you
I don't open the door
To the world.
I'm not a doorman.
I don't
Have the key.
Even if I did,
I don't
Have a heart
To give you..

Something Clever... Tell me something, clever.
Samuel is clever.
Is she?
yes.
Prove it.
I know her.
You don't like her.
No, I do!!
Make up your mind.
Because if you change it every day,
For every person you're around,
I'm never gonna believe what you say.
Yes. I do. I like her.
Then don't say that you don't like her.
If you like someone, you don't talk bad about them.
If you like them, you don't complain about everything that they do.
I keep changing my mind.
But whatever.
If you change your mind about her,
whats stopping you from changing it about me?
...
Let me know,
When you make up your mind.
Till then... You know where to find me.

whats 'real'? Please don't leave me
I won't.
Why do you think I will?
Tell me how I'm different
How I'm special
How you love me
You're more real than them.
You're more real than anyone I know.
I see so much more than them in you.
I like you.
You're different.
What's 'real'
Who's 'them'
What is it that you see inside of me

it wont change I think
It's best
If you leave
But I don't want to
I like you
I don't want to go
To lose you
I'm not giving you
Much of a choice
Leave
No
Why
Why do you want me to
Why should I
I'd rather have you leave
It hurts much less
Than when I lose you
Well I'm not
I'm not leaving you
I haven't left you yet
Why do you think that will change

Light upon her skin.I want to be
In love with someone
And watch the light
Dance on the tips of her skin.

Like the sea,
I'll be the ebb,
And she'll be the flow
Moving together in perfect rhythm .

I want that feeling
Of confusing, alternating, maddening
Love to fill me from within
And to know how it feels,
To hear the words –

could i trust you? You asked me,
Who has your key?
What Key?
The key to your heart
I looked away &&&
When I didn't respond,
You asked me
Can I have the key?
But when I still was quiet,
And wouldn't look at you,
Please.. I really want to have it..
The truth is, I no longer hold the key.
I've trusted so many people with it,
Too many.
I don't have it. Don't know where it went.
I've given it to so many people who have
Unlocked my heart
Just to hurt me. I don't have a key to give you.
I'm sorry.
But.. If I did, could I trust you,
To hold it safe?
Close to your heart,
Where no harm could come of it?
Could I trust you,
Not to walk away once I've let you in?
Once you've seen what I am?
I said,
I'm sorry. I can't....

what would you do?What would you do,
If this valentine's day
I drove up to find you?
What would you do,
If when I found you
I grabbed your hand?
What would you do,
If I shove you up against the wall and
I kissed you?
What would you do,
If I told you
I love you?

sometimes..Sometimes..
I feel like you
Would accept me
For who I am
Sometimes..
You really make me
Believe
That you love me
Sometimes..
I wonder
If you know that
I'm a lesbian
Sometimes…

A very passive agressive piece for the lesbian cluIt is okay to be shallow.

I do not love all.

It is okay, really.

My space is just small.

It is okay.

I do not care.

Love can have conditions.

It makes more sense for me.

Orientation is here for a reason.

Please, let me be.

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by ~Sparkey38, Jan 28, 2013, 11:26:40 PM
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For too long
You lied to me
For too long
You made me
Wait
Alone
In the
Darkness
Now
Im walking away
When you ask others
About me
Ask about how
Why
I have changed
Just remember
It was you
Who made me this way

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~Moosezoomin Feb 12, 2013 Professional Writer

I really like this

I can totally identify with it.

~Sparkey38 Feb 13, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

i try and make my writing somewhat identifiable. so good

(well, bad that you feel that way but good that i can make you identify)

~anubisgirl13 Jan 31, 2013

This happened to me 2 weeks ago *sigh*
But this is really a great poem, i just love it!!

~Sparkey38 Jan 31, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

thank you!

~angeluchiha7 Jan 29, 2013 Student Artist

nice again

~Sparkey38 Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

~angeluchiha7 Jan 30, 2013 Student Artist

wanna rp?

~MrHello556 Jan 28, 2013

Very relatable

~Sparkey38 Jan 28, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

thanks

~MrHello556 Jan 28, 2013

Oh my god. im so sorry about that. f*ck me im so f*cking sorry.

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