reminding me....

Dear you,
I love you. Whole heartedly.
I die inside everytime you don't look at me and I crave your attention.
I secretly hate every other girl in class. Because you love them.
And not me.
I need you in my life.
I don't know what I would do without you.
If you would suddenly leave me. I might die.
Everything I see reminds me of you.
Leopard print.
Blue.
Tigers.
Lions.
Engravings.
Cats.
Silly words.
Big words.
Profound words.
Baked goods.
Chocolate chip cookies.
Cupcakes.
Sparkles.
Bows.
Ribbons.
Pink lipsticks.
Blue eye shadows.
Chocolate brown eyes.
Coffee.
Coffee with straws .
dragons.
Pizza.
Horses.
Every little thing. Everywhere I look.
I need you in my life.
I hate that im not part of your life.
Im forcing myself to be this girly girl who I hate just so that you will look at me…
you never do.
i cant stand this in my life anymore....
i wont leave...
i'll stay forever.
with you...
if only.........
goodbye